(Disclaimer: This post is shamelessly biased toward men and their problems with porn, and it’s written with that context in mind. Sorry about that, ladies.)
While praying this morning, I got the impression that I needed to write a post about pornography addiction. In Kundalini Yoga teacher Felice Austen’s words “The Church is getting its butt kicked by pornography.” It’s a real problem. In that light, I wanted to help people suffering with pornography addiction by giving them new ways to think about pornography. I don’t want to condone it by any means. Instead, I want to help those people re-interpret it so that they can better know how to heal their addictions.
These insights will come from my all-time favorite thinker: Emanuel Swedenborg, the eighteenth-century Swedish renaissance man who was so spiritually attuned that he could see angels and even heaven in his day-to-do life. Specifically, I’m going to use the book Conjugial Love, his treatise on the nature of love in marriage and the perversion of that love in “promiscuous love.”
The first thing to realize about pornography use is that it’s different in character from what Swedenborg would call “the delights of marriage.” This is true for a few reasons. First, pornography use can only ever be “external:” the warmth of love you feel in pornography use is only external, in the genitals, and you never feel love in internal parts like the heart and lungs. In Swedenborg’s own words, when speaking of unrestrained lust in his own day:
For immoderate and inordinate fornications are as flaming fires that spring up from the ultimates and consume the body, parch its fibers, defile the blood, and vitiate the rationals of the mind; for they burst forth as a flame from the foundation of the house and burn up the whole.
When Swedenborg talk about “flaming fires that spring up from the ultimates,” the word “ultimates” means the external parts of the human mind: thoughts and fantasies that aren’t reflected on, the sensory input of a pornography video, the flesh of a porn star. This is one of the evils of pornography: it doesn’t see the “internals” of whatever it lusts after (the feelings written in a loved one’s face, the warmth of the heart around her, etc.) but only the external sensory data. Instead of a living embodiment of divine love, the person gets seen as a titillating bag of meat, an object.
The other evil of pornography is that it indulges in something Swedenborg called “the lust for variety.” Speaking on this lust, he writes:
This lust instills itself with the those who in youth have loosed the restraints of modesty, and with whom there have not been wanting plenty of courtesans, especially if there was no lack of means to meet their demands. They implanted and inrooted the lust within themselves by inordinate and unlimited promiscuity, by shameless thoughts about the love of the female sex, and by confirmations that adulteries are not at all sins. As it goes on, the lust so increases in them that they desire the women of all the world, and would have a troupe, a new one every day. Since this lust casts itself out from the common love of the sex implanted in every man, and altogether from the love of one of the sex, which is conjugial love, and casts itself into the exteriors of the heart as the delight of all love apart from them and yet of them, therefore it is so inrooted inwardly in the cuticles that it remains in the touch after the bodily powers have become languid.
The paragraph describes the evils of porn use and the suffering of porn addiction to a T. Those who are addicted to pornography were those who a) loosed their modesty enough to try it and b) who had enough virtual “courtesans” to have a troupe of women with a new one to enjoy every day. Swedenborg goes on to describe how “this lust is love and at the same time loathing of the sex,” since it loves women when it hasn’t yet “had” her, but hates her when it has “had its fill” with her. He describes this evocatively:
Place on the left hand a company of those that they have enjoyed, and on the right a company of those whom they have not enjoyed. Would they not look upon the latter with love and upon the former with loathing?
The lust of variety is the biggest evil of porn use, since it takes the warm delight of conjugial love (the delight of gazing into your beloved’s eyes, the happiness of making them happy, the warmth of touch meant to show love) and “as it were grinds it to dust and thus annihilates it.” Swedenborg explains how conjugial love, more than just the love between married partners, is the love at the inmost level of our being. At our innermost levels, we are a marriage with all its delights. As such, when those with the lust for variety are let into themselves, they are inwardly empty, trying desperately to find that inner warmth the only way they know how: the flesh of yet another porn star.
Finally, porn use can actually cause a loss of sexual potency and other aspects of virility, which people talk about today but which Swedenborg knew very well:
[With purposed and confirmed adulterers] the faculty and virtue which is called manly become enfeebled even to none; and after that also begins coldness toward the sex; and then follows disdain which leads to loathing.
Porn use actually kills the heart of divine sexuality in you, which will make you more lustful but less able to consummate that lust. Moreover, the opposite is true for conjugial love: with it, men become more and more potent, virile, and confident.
So what is a porn addict to do? If they’re trying to find the warmth of love but have dissipated that love by focusing on purely external things, how can they get it back? I’ll offer a few suggestions, all using Swedenborigan terminology.
First, do useful things. In Swedenborg’s system, “use” describes what happens when you put good intentions and true thoughts into action. When I don’t just want to help people but, instead, actually clean the kitchen or say a kind word to another, I make love real, since love in the mind doesn’t fully become itself until it enters physical action. And the love that comes through in good deeds is conjugial love or the love of marriage, since in it good and truth wed themselves to produce something that contains both of their essences. In Swedenborg’s own words:
…every angel is an angel according to his use. The enjoyment of use carries him along as a favoring current does a ship, and causes him to be in eternal peace, and in the rest of peace. This is meant by eternal rest from labors. That an angel is alive according to the eagerness of his mind from use, is very plain from the fact that every angel has conjugial love, with its virtue, its potency, and it’s delights, according to his eager application to the genuine use in which he is.
When you serve others from a place of love, you cultivate that love and its fire until it overwhelms you with something porn could never come close to. Porn addiction is but a poor substitute.
Second, don’t insist that you’re the only one who can beat porn addiction. Because you can’t do anything on your own; only God can save you. In fact, the more you insist that you’re the “hero” who’s going to slay the porn monster, the worse it’s going to get. Only action prompted by God, or more specifically, from His love present in you, will help. Swedenborg describes the importance of this “passivity” to God in his other work True Christianity:
In the case of charity and faith, the Lord acts and the person acts in response to the Lord, for the Lord’s activity lies within the person’s passivity. Therefore the ability to act aright is for the Lord.
That’s not to say that you should do nothing. That’s the furthest thing from Swedenborg’s intent. Instead, he means that you should be passive to the impulses for goodness within you, never being concerned about whether those good actions will be received well by another person or if they will have an effect. To worry about the effects of good deeds is to not follow Jesus’ counsel to “take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on.” You should instead always “take no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself.” So doing, the good deeds that cultivate conjugial love within you will grow warm and bright much faster than if you tried to smother it with anxieties that, since they don’t trust in the infinite but instead the finite. are ultimately self-centered.
Finally, you can’t overemphasize the power of practices like meditation, Kundalini Yoga, or even exercise. Kundalini Yoga especially is a very effective way to free promiscuous love “trapped” in the lower chakras by transmitting it into higher, more pure conjugial love. Here’s a video to get you started:
Instructions for the Sat Kriya
Keep trusting God. Even something as evil as pornography can be a mercy, since, as Swedenborg often said, evil can only ever be removed if it’s first expressed. So when you’re ready, use these tools to help remove it. God bless you – and He certainly loves you more than you know.